I have been tortured with ENDOMETRIOSIS for a while now. The pain is horrible and I'm just about holding on. Weight dropped off me at the start of the year and I had lost 2 and a half stone, without trying. Normally I'd be like YAY, but I looked ill. Strong painkillers help but the pain is always there. So I'm holding on best I can. To be honest 6+ weeks ago I was supposed to see my surgeon. This was cancelled the day before. It broke me! Being in chronic pain really gets you down. I'm taking everything one step at a time and hoping I will be seen soon...
Living with endometriosis is a pain in the ass and I thought i'd been punished enough over the years... Maybe not then!
The pain is sharp and it feels like you are being continuously stabbed. Along with the pain I get an endo belly, when I wake up I have a flat stomach, then throughout the day my endo belly appears. Swollen? Bloat? Whatever you want to call it, it is uncomfortable, I detest my body when my endo belly appears, my self confidence drops, my emotions run wild. I try to plod on... I have spoken with some other women who have had it or those who are still going through it, like me. I have been advised to change my diet (i'm wheat free anyway medical reasons). So last night I decided to have a feast with my husband before going on an endometriosis diet plan... my last steak... Now I have given up on alcohol, coffee, red meat and anything cooked in fat, running alongside of being wheat free. To be honest I need this to work until I see the surgeon.
So I have my endometriosis diet ready to start today (check), strong pain killers (check) and my pain relief patches (check).
I have found that a little exercise can help mentally and physically. Trying to focus on other things and needing to get out of May quickly. Which means keeping as busy as I can be.
So it's decided... After completing my skips today I am going to pamper myself, have a nice long bath, file and paint my nails.
remember to give yourself a break. Tomorrow is a new day. Let's reach for the STARS!